Letters to love
See the thing is i love my wife but i havent felt loved by her. Maybe men aren't supposed to feel. But im very fragile, I just wanted to feel good. Im a fool and this is what foolish men get for wanting to feel.
I recall a whisper in my mind, dont act like a bitch when shit starts to happen. I may be a bit of a bitch
Nose bloody
Emotional novicain
Teeth shown
Universal plans
I do not understand
I am lost
Back to wall
Loveless fight or flight
Emotions ive never felt
Something happened to me in may. i dont know what. im not sure who killed me. But i am all heart and dying. I blame me, i blame you i blame her. I blame the love of my foolish heart. I dont know what happened to me. I wish i wasnt a fool. I wish i knew how to love and what love to recieve. You are beautiful and i never could have you. I never could hold on to you. You are too much woman for me and now, i see. I must have died and not been burried yet. Some force is against me. In my head pressure, some evil posseses me. I can not come near you without hurt. you deserve the best. I knew i was falling and even you can not save me. Do not forgive me and never forget. I will do my best to survive this. But the lover i had is no more and was lost years ago.
I need a woman thats got my back not holding the knife in it
But i still love her.
There is no devil, good or evil. Just two fools young in love passion stale over time, revived with jealouslys vengeance. the machine of marriage not inclined to move in two different directions.
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